Sometimes words aint enough....
If only I can invent something that enables my mind to link with my lappy then I can make do without the hassle of typing all this words..
Anyway its back to staying in every weekday and booking out on weekends, on a brighter note it makes time move faster and I get to save on transport money...woohoo..
Its a pity my saturday was burnt, I had to stay back to do duty. Imagine being the only guy in the company staying the night there...it was damnnn boooring man...and there wasnt really much calls. So I practically spent the whole day flipping through FHM, newman, 8 days, Maxim and even Cleo in the office.....wahaha..but I got sick of doing that to, so I ended up watching Harry Potter until midnight waiting for Hakim to take over me..
and yah, I booked out this morning and I'm booking in at 11pm later...fun isnt it? spending 6 days there and less then a day at home...
if it had been me few months ago I would have been very depressed, but now I'm getting the hang of it...
Tuesday, June 23, 2009
I'm very tired, 11 days being a commander and its not as easy as it seems. Seriously its like taking care of kindergarden kids. Its hard to know what going on in their minds. Were they playing a fool or are they really serious? Are they trying to get attention or just joking around? There's a lot of questions I have to ask myself to try analyse the situation. Using my own judgement to decide what's wrong and what right for them. It's a lot of work but hey.....someone's got to do it.
Oh well, sometimes I wonder if lending money to friends is such a good idea? would they take it for granted that being friends would allow them to prolong paying back the money? Of course I'm not talking about 10 dollars or 30 dollars. I consider above 100 quite a large sum but the thing is how...how to politely ask for it back without offending their feelings? Gee...
Wednesday, June 10, 2009
I need a new lappy man.. its been making a lot of weird noises and I assumed that maybe there's something wrong with its system. Its still working fine though...been through thick and thin with me for around 4 years plus. Oh well, as long as it works it doesnt matter.
Pay day is today! Woo! Haha...don't see the point in getting all excited now, I'm still getting my cadet pay now, need to wait for one whole month before I finally get my sgt pay and yeah hopefully my pay increase *cross fingers*.
I did a quick calculation on my expenditure for last month and I decided that I will not condone such extreme spending again. And I have to thank the canteen for taking a large part of my "contributions". I think I might need a getaway first..
Tuesday, June 02, 2009
I was alone at the bus stop when this girl came up to me to ask me a question, which is where's her location, after answering her question she sat down next to me. The next thing I knew, she was on the phone talking and in between words I could hear sobbing sounds. Surprised by the sudden noise, I turned around to see what I hear. And there she was siting, the phone cupped around her ears and the distinct crying which she tried very hard to conceal but to no avail. Girls crying is not what I like to see, so I was momentarily stunned not sure what to do. Should I ask her if she's okay? When clearly she's not? No way....instinctively I reached out for my pocket searching for tissues. That's when I remembered that I don't usually carry around tissues. There's nothing much I can offer but somehow I really wanted to help her cause she sounds so troubled. Maybe I could lend her my shoulder's instead? Yeah rite....so with no way to help her I just sat there like an idiot. Somehow the thought of a stranger suddenly coming up to you just to console you seems pretty fishy. So me thinking for almost 10 mins, i gave up when my bus came...and I left wishing that i could have done something about it......
Monday, June 01, 2009
I miss school life, I can't believe that I couldnt even do simple multiplication and division as fast as I could last time. My brain is literally rusty and rotting away, its been more than one year since I did some major calculation or even use my brain to think. After almost a total of 16 years of studying, I'm now like a blank piece of paper. The ink's now tainted and fading away..what worries me most is how ready am I for uni, when I finally ord?
Aniwaes, I'm enjoying the course that I'm going thru currently. It's so lepak, just lectures and lectures. Reminds me of poly times...so carefree and relax. Oh well.. 1 year 2 months to go.. and aww..10 more days to payday and I'm spending like there's no tomorrow...
Sunday, May 24, 2009
tomorrow, I'll be taking a new path....
at the moment, all I see ahead is just a long winding path that seems to be never ending..
but I have chosen this path and I will continue moving on ..not knowing where this path will ultimately lead..
I'm envious, of people, of friends, of strangers....but somehow or rather thats how it is. What others achieved are by their own effort or rather by luck. While the rest are basically not good enough or unlucky. Maybe that's how it goes....who knows?
Anyway, I finally passed out as a sergeant and got posted to BMTC. I have mixed feelings, life as a trainee and life as a commander.... would it be better off? Oh well........no use pondering over it, let's just go with the flow..
Monday, April 20, 2009
My last hurdle....
3 weeks in the land of the thousand smiles..
i'll make it through......somehow