raison d'être - ill wait for you..

2009-07-12T21:34:00.002+08:00

Sometimes words aint enough....

If only I can invent something that enables my mind to link with my lappy then I can make do without the hassle of typing all this words..

Anyway its back to staying in every weekday and booking out on weekends, on a brighter note it makes time move faster and I get to save on transport money...woohoo..

Its a pity my saturday was burnt, I had to stay back to do duty. Imagine being the only guy in the company staying the night there...it was damnnn boooring man...and there wasnt really much calls. So I practically spent the whole day flipping through FHM, newman, 8 days, Maxim and even Cleo in the office.....wahaha..but I got sick of doing that to, so I ended up watching Harry Potter until midnight waiting for Hakim to take over me..

and yah, I booked out this morning and I'm booking in at 11pm later...fun isnt it? spending 6 days there and less then a day at home...

if it had been me few months ago I would have been very depressed, but now I'm getting the hang of it...

2009-06-23T23:25:00.002+08:00

I'm very tired, 11 days being a commander and its not as easy as it seems. Seriously its like taking care of kindergarden kids. Its hard to know what going on in their minds. Were they playing a fool or are they really serious? Are they trying to get attention or just joking around? There's a lot of questions I have to ask myself to try analyse the situation. Using my own judgement to decide what's wrong and what right for them. It's a lot of work but hey.....someone's got to do it.

Oh well, sometimes I wonder if lending money to friends is such a good idea? would they take it for granted that being friends would allow them to prolong paying back the money? Of course I'm not talking about 10 dollars or 30 dollars. I consider above 100 quite a large sum but the thing is how...how to politely ask for it back without offending their feelings? Gee...

2009-06-10T22:52:00.002+08:00

I need a new lappy man.. its been making a lot of weird noises and I assumed that maybe there's something wrong with its system. Its still working fine though...been through thick and thin with me for around 4 years plus. Oh well, as long as it works it doesnt matter.

Pay day is today! Woo! Haha...don't see the point in getting all excited now, I'm still getting my cadet pay now, need to wait for one whole month before I finally get my sgt pay and yeah hopefully my pay increase *cross fingers*.

I did a quick calculation on my expenditure for last month and I decided that I will not condone such extreme spending again. And I have to thank the canteen for taking a large part of my "contributions". I think I might need a getaway first..

beautiful stranger

2009-06-02T19:58:00.002+08:00

I was alone at the bus stop when this girl came up to me to ask me a question, which is where's her location, after answering her question she sat down next to me. The next thing I knew, she was on the phone talking and in between words I could hear sobbing sounds. Surprised by the sudden noise, I turned around to see what I hear. And there she was siting, the phone cupped around her ears and the distinct crying which she tried very hard to conceal but to no avail. Girls crying is not what I like to see, so I was momentarily stunned not sure what to do. Should I ask her if she's okay? When clearly she's not? No way....instinctively I reached out for my pocket searching for tissues. That's when I remembered that I don't usually carry around tissues. There's nothing much I can offer but somehow I really wanted to help her cause she sounds so troubled. Maybe I could lend her my shoulder's instead? Yeah rite....so with no way to help her I just sat there like an idiot. Somehow the thought of a stranger suddenly coming up to you just to console you seems pretty fishy. So me thinking for almost 10 mins, i gave up when my bus came...and I left wishing that i could have done something about it......

2009-06-01T20:56:00.002+08:00

I miss school life, I can't believe that I couldnt even do simple multiplication and division as fast as I could last time. My brain is literally rusty and rotting away, its been more than one year since I did some major calculation or even use my brain to think. After almost a total of 16 years of studying, I'm now like a blank piece of paper. The ink's now tainted and fading away..what worries me most is how ready am I for uni, when I finally ord?

Aniwaes, I'm enjoying the course that I'm going thru currently. It's so lepak, just lectures and lectures. Reminds me of poly times...so carefree and relax. Oh well.. 1 year 2 months to go.. and aww..10 more days to payday and I'm spending like there's no tomorrow...

a new beginning..

2009-05-24T21:43:00.002+08:00

tomorrow, I'll be taking a new path....

at the moment, all I see ahead is just a long winding path that seems to be never ending..

but I have chosen this path and I will continue moving on ..not knowing where this path will ultimately lead..

2009-05-24T00:48:00.003+08:00

I'm envious, of people, of friends, of strangers....but somehow or rather thats how it is. What others achieved are by their own effort or rather by luck. While the rest are basically not good enough or unlucky. Maybe that's how it goes....who knows?

Anyway, I finally passed out as a sergeant and got posted to BMTC. I have mixed feelings, life as a trainee and life as a commander.... would it be better off? Oh well........no use pondering over it, let's just go with the flow..

2009-04-20T17:46:00.002+08:00

My last hurdle....

3 weeks in the land of the thousand smiles..

i'll make it through......somehow

v'day?

2009-02-16T23:00:00.002+08:00

14 feb :

Fauzan was walking 28km from 10pm to 6.30am.

He was found to be literally limping all the way and cursing under his breath almost every second.

it is understood that he cannot be contacted for further details.

2009-01-27T13:15:00.000+08:00

The Middle

Hey, don't write yourself off yet
It's only in your head you feel left out
and looked down on.
Just try your best,
Try everything you can.
And don't you worry what they tell themselves
When you're away.

It just takes some time
Little girl, you're in the middle of the ride.
Everything, everything will be just fine,
Everything, everything will be alright, alright.

Hey, you know they're all the same.
You know you're doing better on your own,
so don't buy in.
Live right now and
just be yourself.
It doesn't matter if it's good enough
For someone else.

It just takes some time
Little girl, you're in the middle of the ride.
Everything, everything will be just fine,
Everything, everything will be alright, alright.
It just takes some time
Little girl, you're in the middle of the ride.
Everything, everything will be just fine,
Everything, everything will be alright, alright.

Hey, don't write yourself off yet,
It's only in your head you feel left out
and looked down on.
Just do your best,
Do everything you can.
And don't you worry what their bitter hearts
Are gonna say.

It just takes some time,
Little girl, you're in the middle of the ride.
Everything, everything will be just fine,
Everything, everything will be alright,alright.
It just takes some time,
Little girl, you're in the middle of the ride.
Everything, everything will be just fine.
Everything, everything will be alright.

2009

2009-01-03T21:42:00.002+08:00

2009? ahhh.....i wanted 2010 to come! Oh well, aniwae I hope 2009 will be a good year for all u guys, my only goal for 2009 is to successfully pass out of SISPEC and hope for a better life in NS although the possibility for that to happen is verry low.

two consecutive week of having holidays ended just like that, starting from this week mon-sat in Pasir Laba...haiz. Just have to wait for CNY then but even then there's a chance I will get guard duty.

aniwae spent the new yr counting down at Aisyah's place, where we had steamboat and then pretty much slack off,played guitar hero and watch movies. Damn...im so tempted to buy xbox 360 after playing guitar hero but it will be pretty much useless at home if i bought it and get to play it once a week. I guess i'll have to wait until 2010 to buy it.

SISPEC

2008-12-28T01:44:00.004+08:00

So my Tekong days are over, and now we move on to SISPEC also known as the School of Infantry Specialists. From a private, I'm now a specialist cadet trainee...which from my understanding is probably the same rank as a corporal in the aslc and also means higher pay! haha. Its about time..

Well....I would say the first week was pretty okay to me. Although I love the holidays this month. Xmas, New Year and soon CNY! Woohoo! But there are some concerns, focusing more on my injuries and on whether i can hold out and successfully finish the six month training and passed out as a sergeant. Oh well, no use worrying.

What I'm more concern about is maybe my personal life. I've kinda lose touch with a lot of people. There's so many friends I want to meet up with, catch up on old times, hang out and talk cock but too bad time does not permit it. Yah and there's girls, how to socialize in this kind of situation? Aiyoh....cannot be see girl on mrt then ask "Hey nak berkenalan?" hurhur...

sorry sorry..
maybe i shouldnt complain too much..
two years only mah..
-.-

and one more thing, i really hate chatting with people who dont seem to put in the effort to chat..for example, u started off with one long sentences then she simply reply with one word and then you try to ask questions but she replied with a yes or no. And the cycle goes on...now, who wouldnt be frustrated? I would..

sorry sorry....
maybe too much anger in me..
maybe i should join the dark side instead..

POP LOH!

2008-12-10T16:10:00.005+08:00

Fuh! I know.....this blog has been collecting dust since forever, so just a little update on my army life so far.

Army life is tough, most of the time, it has taken me far beyond my body limit which leaves me with only my mind endurance. And to make it worst, I was enlisted into one of the well known xiong company. So far the past two months everyday has been quite rush with plenty of tough trainings and a lot of pumpings being dished out. Our admin time is usually very limited and never exceeded an hour before.

So to sum it up it's quite a miserable life. You are cut off from your social life outside, you are far away from home and your family. And so far field camp was one of the lowest point in my BMT life..But one thing I learnt from this is that it makes you tougher, mentally and physically plus it really stretched your body limit far beyond what you think you are capable of.

So until now i think i obtained quite a decent results, i passed my SOC, got marksman for live range and got silver for my IPPT AND I POP LOH!!!

Through all this, I wanna thank my PC,PS and all 3 Sgts for guiding us through this critical point of our NS life.

PC : "It is my duty to inform you that it is a chargeable offence ....I have given you ample time.."
PS : " Don't try understand? So what did the ground tell you?."
Sgt Noor : " Why? Why? Someone tell me why? Still no reply....down!".
Sgt Damien : "Knee pain ah? 2 km more to go fall out ah!"
Sgt Siew Wai : " Sure or not?"

2008-10-08T22:23:00.001+08:00

hey hey.....so sorry i didnt do any updating, i'm lazy...anyway I just wanna say i'm gonna miss u guys who read this blog.....which basically is Nissy and Su! haha...tc always....

2008-08-26T22:06:00.002+08:00

1. The person who last tag you is:Nissy
2. Your relationship with him/her is:We're like brother and sister,except she's the younger one =p
3. Your five impression of him/her:blur,nice,crappy,sweet,fun
4. The most memorable thing he/she had done for you: Gave me the coolest cap with my name on it =)
5. The most memorable thing he/she had said to you:Hmm...she tends to talk a lot,so its a lot of words to remember...lol
6.If he/she become your lover, you will: cry
7. If he/she become your lover, thing he/she has to improve on will be:she must buy me a car...
8. If he/she become your enemy, you will: cry.
9. If he/she become your enemy, the reason will be: the reason is you
10. The most desire thing you want to do for him/her now is: nothing...she seems to smile a lot now.. =)
11. Your overall impression of him/her is: she's just nice =)
12. How you think people around you will feel about you?: abt wat?
13. The characters you love of yourself are: hmm...no idea..maybe my determination..
14. On the contrary, the characters you hate yourself are: being lazy...and hesitant
15. The most ideal person you want to be is: i'm satisfied with myself
16. For people that care and like you, say something to them: thanks for making me feel appreciated =)
17. Pass this quiz to 10 persons that you wished to know how they feel about you
1)Niss
2)Waz
3)Sya
4)Mag
5)Khim
6)Faiz
7)Su
8)Hazwan
9)Puss
10)Qin
18.Who is no.6 having relationship with? no one at the moment
19. Is no.9 a male or female?Male.
20.If no.7 and 10 are together, will it be a good thing?haha....7 can teach 1o
22. What is no.2 studying about?Aeronautical engineering
23. When was the last time you had a chat with no.3?on her birthday
24. What kind of music band does no.8 like?rock?
25. Does no.1 have any siblings? younger sister? coral sec?
26. Will you woo no.3? Haha..probably?.
27. How about no.7?sheesh...she's like my younger sister...
28. Is no.4 single?he's engaged
29. What is the surname of no.5? Ng
30. What 's the hobby of no.4? Predicting the future
31. Does no.5 and 9 get along well?they dont know each other
32. Where is no.2 studying at?SP
33. Talk something casually about no.1:i think i said enough =)
34. Have you tried developing feelings for no.8?haha...thats so wrong
35. Where does no.9 live at?Jln Senang
36. What colour does no.4 like?Orange?
37. Are no.5 and 1 best friend? Haha...no
38. Does no.1 have any pets?yeah...imaginary pets
39. Is no.7 the sexiest person in the world?of course =)
40. What is no. 10 doing now? in bed with my mum.

Happy Birthday!

2008-08-18T23:56:00.003+08:00

Just wishing dearest Sya, a Happy 17th Birthday! May all your wish come true ! =)

moviebites

2008-08-15T22:24:00.005+08:00

well....I've quit my moviebites job, I'm left with one more job..had a fun time working at moviebites for one year, here's some picture of my fun loving colleagues!

Darrick

Mazwan

Aini

Khim and Jean

Dearest Khim! =)

Dad's birthday at sakura

2008-08-12T21:46:00.003+08:00

brothers

yum!

sisters

lil sis

Dearest mom and dad

nervous

2008-07-14T19:45:00.002+08:00

One more day left....before we are left all alone to fend for ourselves againts the wrath of the taxpayers,hurhur. Today was slack, we went through quiz 1 and 2 the whole morning till after lunch. I did manage to pass both papers and I got highest for paper 2! Woohoo! Haha...but it still doestn make a difference cause I'm still not prepared to answer all those tax question but I'll try my best. And as its the last day of training,all of us had lunch together in the room where we had our training. Everyone tapao and even bought extra snacks for after lunch. Haha...it didnt even feel like training today, Asmah gave us some time off towards the end after de-briefing and we spent the rest of the afternoon just cracking up telling funny stories.

so it seems

2008-07-12T14:08:00.000+08:00

So for like 20 mins today,my mum nagged at me.All thanks to my brother who admitted that he smokes.

"rambut dah punk, dah lah rokok....ni baru hulurkan rokok,blum hulurkan dadah.."

Haiz...of course I've always been telling my "baka" brother to quit smoking like forever but he never listens. Then there's that pack of poker card he kept,I told him to hide it but noooo he has to just dump it inside his bag. And in the end my mum found a pack of poker cards and a lighter in his bag. Where the source of all this started.

Well.....enough of that, I've tried my best, the rest is all up to him whether he wants to quit or not.

Aniwae in the news today, Nora Danish's husband jatuhkan talak kedua two times to her. What an ass. Doesnt he realised that he's lucky to have such a beautiful wife....but noooo he has to divorce her just when she's pregnant. Its sad really but i've been a fan of hers eversince i started my new job and whenever i reach home my youngest sister will always watch the "puteri" show which is her favourite. She always get excited watching that...haha. Even though the storyline quite merepek its still rather interesting. Tsk tsk...i think my adek will be sad if she learns that they split up...zzz..

in time

2008-07-11T23:02:00.000+08:00

Got to try speaking to a TP today, I was a bit nervous but I think it turn out pretty good. My first caller was kind..he only ask me simple question...haha,but I still needed help from Irfan to answer that. At least I have some experience, and on Tuesday....I'll be on my own...more reading up I need..

Aniwae after work,I accompanied Charlie to Temasek Poly for the ITE-Poly event thingy...her bf was participating in the volleyball competition and since I dont have much to do, I followed her. It was okay lah....not that exciting,unlike soccer but I spent most of the time just talking to her. If not she'll just be there all alone..

And yah, finally just a bit of congrats to Rancour! Woohoo...they won the anugerah band competition which was held 2 days ago. I think their songs rock, was there with my family to soak up the atmosphere. Abg Azli and his band was awesome that night. Kak Ani must be so proud....hurhur.

2008-07-05T23:45:00.000+08:00

Hancock was a nice show! As expected of Will Smith, there's some really unexpected twist at the end of the movie which surprises me. Anyway, watched it with Sha today at downtown east..explore a bit and then we spent the rest of the afternoon at mccafe. Funny how I live in Pasir Ris and yet I havent explore the new place until just now. And it was really sweet of her to give me the cute NS book. We made our way to Tamp after that just to check out the place. Thanks a lot for spending time with me today though..a nice way to end the week =)

Haha...aniwae on the way home I met another Shaa, this time its Shahedah....she was with her cousins, and after saying hi we end up going the same way...and when i wanted to buy bubble tea for my sister we end up meeting again..haha,but i was feeling rather generous so i treated them to bubble tea. Then we went our seperate ways althought we did go the same way again for a while....and since i was in a generous mood i actually bought my sis dinner also. See.....nice brother i am...haha

new job

2008-07-04T22:03:00.000+08:00

2nd day into my new job and its pretty taxing. Have to wake up at 6.30 am every morning. Been ages since I have to wake up that early and the last time was during secondary school period. Even during poly period I still have the leisure of waking up late for classes. Well, better get use to it since I have to get up pretty damn early when I serve my NS.

Today we were lectured about tax relief and tax computation, with so many related tax stuff to remember it gets really intense. And with only one hour break in between 8.30 am to 5 pm, thats even worse than poly. But I think its okay, its good for the mind and its similar to maths and I love maths....I think..

Anyhow,my colleagues are pretty fun to hang out with so that's a plus point althought most of them are older than me. Hey...being younger just means you are entitled to ask stupid questions. And that works for me =p

Oh....and on the way home i bump into someone. Still giving me the cold shoulder, and after so many years. I dont even know whats the deal with her. All the hatred still kept inside her and its not like I didnt try to talk to her. Although there have been times when my friends meddle around with my msn and she thought I was them. And to think we used to be best friends. Why couldnt we just chat like old friends and forget the past? sheesh..

2008-06-30T15:57:00.000+08:00

Finally I woke up early today, ran 9 laps around the park, a bit of pull ups then pancit....haha. Well, "sikit-sikit jadi bukit" so I'll start slowly. Hopefully can wake up early again tomorrow. Not working today and I got no plans except for my default plan which is to stay home. I did put one shift today but too bad i didnt get it. so that's pretty much it..until later..

another day

2008-06-28T06:44:00.000+08:00

Its 6 am in the morning and I'm not sleeping back because I have soccer later at 9 am and I know that if I slept back I won't wake up on time. So here I am watching friends.Anyway was working with my brother yesterday and just as we were finishing dinner, Khim and Jean came over from watching The Zohan at Bugis. It was nice of them to come and chill with us since we were really bored to death from doing nothing before that. They stayed until closing time and then we walked together to peace center to take the bus.

Khim and Me

work work

2008-06-27T00:15:00.000+08:00

Today wasnt so bad after all. Maybe due to the fact the customers were surprisingly nicer and more sociable today and also because i got a new job! Some guy called today asking if i was still available and of course at first it does sounds kinda wrong. The first thing u ask is if I'm available? I dont mind if a girl ask me that though....hee, well anyway he's from IRAS and he offered me a job that I had applied ard 2 months ago. For 7 dollars ++ per hour at least I should try it out. And compared to what Im earning now, its much better.

Then while working today, this family came by and ordered ard 5 hotdogs. While waiting for it to cook they started talking to me about life and such and also whether I watch Hindi movies. Haha...and then the father ask me, " I ask u ah, how many girlfriends u have before? " so I said "Just 2." He looked at me wide eyed and said "Dont lie ah, I see u so handsome surely got more than 7." And then he started to talk abt a friend of his very fair got 7 girlfriends and how rich all the girlfriends are such that he doesnt need to work for his expenses. Haha...that reallie made my day though, of course with nothing to do that has to be the only thing that made my day. -.-

dreams

2008-06-26T13:10:00.000+08:00

There she was suddenly at my door and I thought to myself when the hell did i ask her out?
But no matter, its like she read my mind and came here out of her own will. Then she suggested that maybe we could watch at downtown east. "Woah! thats convenient " I thought. Considering she lives on the Northern part of Singapore this was such a surprise.

But a few moments later, I woke up...

Another example of such strange dreams I've been having, although the one the night before was unpleasant as compared to this.

Anyway, woke up early today but plans to jog was postpone due to the fact that my body wasnt on the same page as my mind on waking up early and jogging around the park at 8 am in the morning.

In the end i fell asleep again and woke up at 11, fetched my little sis at noon and now just waiting to go to work. Its been 3 days that i had to work alone at prince, and its such a bore that i find myself talking to me lately. See what boredom can do? Haiz...another boring day to look forward to.

updates

2008-06-25T13:24:00.000+08:00

just listing some things that maybe u probably didnt know,
Firstly ill be posted to Tekong, BMTC 2 on the 9th October.
Required to report to Pasir ris Interchange at 8 am.
Four months left....and im still the guy who wakes up thinking of going jogging every morning
but never did.
Typical..
Secondly...NUS confirmed my admission to their electrical course
and lastly I'm still stuck at moviebites -.-

revival

2008-06-25T13:06:00.000+08:00

Hello again..
I decided to give this blog
a new life..
a new look..
a chance to speak..
and finally for me to get a life =p

update

2007-12-11T21:58:00.000+08:00

well.....a little update abt my otherwise boring life..

lets start off with NAPFA test. I PASS!! Hahahaha......i got silver, not bad lah....after 3 yrs of not running i guess that should suffice..and oh yah, those who got silver gets a free crumpler pouch. Its pretty small but its still crumpler.

Next ..I finished my medical check up, seems pretty scary at first but it was okay after going through it. Had to go through 6 stations and the last one was a pain in the *** . Lol.....its sumthing like an apptitude test and believe me, its mentally exhausting. The test itself lasted 2 hours plus. And I got PES B! Ish....could have gotten PES A if i wasnt that light....haha.....but aniwae,was thankful that it went smoothly...

Got back my test papers...it was okay lah....5 papers, A,A,B,B,B ....sumthing like that...but now still busy with fyp and preperations for spinnovex. Been going home at ard 10 pm most of the time and really, I cant wait till this thing ends! Stress! Arghhh!....Things to do left : Report for Big and Small Robot, Building of Autonomous Robot and maintaining small robot for participation in SRG.

Oh well.....lets talk abt sumthing pretty relaxing now....hmm, work is okay....quite fun actuallie, there's been some new staff coming in at Bugis and they all seem pretty fun to get along with..haha,and wilson hasnt stop bugging me abt the one at lido...relax lah!

2007-11-14T00:01:00.000+08:00

Today I found out what 3 yrs of not running can do to you. Since NAPFA test is coming in two weeks I decided to test out how i fare if i tried today and I failed miserably. Seriously I lack fitness, for 2.4km run I couldnt even finish the run..I stop and gave at 1.6km...well lets compare how i did today to the NAPFA test i got 3 yrs ago.

----------------- Today -----Sec 4

2.4km run -------nil--------- 9.56mins
Pull-up ------------7 ----------7
Broad jump----- 240-------- 232
Shuttle Run -----nil--------- 9.98 secs
Sit Up ------------37 ----------50

more practice..

update

2007-11-10T14:32:00.000+08:00

okay.....a bit of important events...

19 Nov- 23 Nov => Mid Semester Test (Zzzz..)
27 Nov => NAPFA test (Zzzz) / End of my license probation (woohoo!)
3 Dec => Cousin Wedding
5 Dec => Medical Checkup
23 Dec => Christmas Party at Prince
Any date in between this months => Preperations for spinnovex ( Cant wait for this to end though)

Yes....I am a busy man...hurhur

ais

2007-08-16T22:12:00.000+08:00

What a relief, the first paper down and two more to go. AIS was okay, it was much better than I expected mainly because I spent the whole day before the paper memorising the whole book. My friends call me crazy for doing that but its not really memorising the whole book just the important facts. Well,basically I reach school at 10 am to meet up with Jelly and gang. Just to do some last minute studying, then we met Abg Zack in one of the classroom and I think he's more extreme. He had this big vanguard sheet on his desk and he was scribbling all over it. It turns out that its his way of memorising the facts.

First he remembers it then he recalls by scribbling it down on the sheet.

But I feel lucky cause the things i studied for came out which was such a big relief for me.

Okay lets talk about today,hmm...well,initially I wanted to start studying for ARF this morning but as of now 10.19 pm already and I still havent started. I keep procrastinating and its like a routine for me already. Must try to stop this bad habit of mine. Maybe I'll give myself half an hour and then start studying again. But I foresee that my PSP will try to stop me from studying. Hah...

Reunion

2007-08-13T21:53:00.000+08:00

WOo.....hello ppl! First of all wanna say a BIG congratz to Nissy for never giving up and wishing her many many A1's for her upcoming O level.

Well aniwae,yesterday was fun! Had to work from 9.30 in the morning till abt 5 then off to East Coast Park for our Primary School Reunion. I thought that it was going to be the usual bunch of people but i was pleasantly surprise that ppl i wasnt expecting to see came. And thats when the guessing games start. A bit akward but yeah I still remember all the fun time we had last time. And yeah photos! Wooohoo!

Hisham,Syafiq,Anwar

No! i didnt finish the food..

"Run Around Naked?"

Syarina and Ain

Group photo

me and Anwar

My fellow prefects : Tuty Sulastri and Perry Liza!

Ashirah and Syarina

I think thats me

Thats it..aniwae wish me luck for my exams! haha...tc

stressss

2007-07-17T22:17:00.000+08:00

Im seriously up to my neck with projects and stuff, gee..just received email from Mr.Toh saying that we are behind time. To make it worst GT8 terminate their production so we have to switch to using PIC instead and that means making a new source code. Still short of resources and everything need to be rush and then Mr Toh put me in charge of preparing the small robots and overseeing the training of the new batch of students...zzzz. And he expect us to have like 4-6 small robots! Unfortunately we have only two working robots for now, well this means more time in school for me less time to play. But yeah I have to work hard even if it means saying back until night since this is my final year right....must chiong ahhh....wahahahaa...

Okay enough about the project, making me dizzy. Well...I personally hate CSW, just now we had to role play telephone speech between a caller and the receiver. Sian eh...I think i really suck at it. Languages are definitely not my forte. SO for once Im happy if I can just pass this module..but i would be happier if i can score in this module also.

So aniwae I guess I wont be hanging out here for some time aite...so take care peeps and anything msg me...

haha

2007-07-05T21:35:00.000+08:00

Maybe I need a tissue for today, dunno why Im watching touching stories today.

Watched the pursuit of happyness by Will Smith, and yeah its really a touching movie. Kinda inspiring, sad yet they can still stay happy at troubled times.

And this is wat he said to his son at one part :

"You got a dream, you gotta protect it. People can't do something themselves, they wanna tell you that you can't do it. You want something? Go get it. Period. "

and I like this part....when he was thinking to himself at his lowest point of time,

"It was right then that I started thinking about Thomas Jefferson on the Declaration of Independence and the part about our right to life, liberty, and the pursuit of happiness. And I remember thinking how did he know to put the pursuit part in there? That maybe happiness is something that we can only pursue and maybe we can actually never have it. No matter what. How did he know that?"

Oh well....it did have a happy ending though,hurhur.

and then I watch a show on channel 5 about a grandfather and his grandson. Touching also,ish..

Aww.....aniwae,I almost forgot....I want to wish my bestest buddy Nissy and Nizar all the best!!! N and N = N square...nyahahaha,another touching story....take care of each other aite..

IM BACCKKK..

2007-06-23T21:08:00.000+08:00

Elooooooooo........haha....finally back home......well, Pangkor Island was okay i guess but i prefer Perhentian Island....hurhur...lazy to write everything down ...just a few pictures to show =)

waiting for ferry..

Driving on Malaysia's highway...scary though

Us..

Our kampung style hotel

Big waves....i like

Cute pinky taxi on Pangkor island

One whole line of them

First night at Lumut.

Inside ferry..

Along the beach

somewhere near the beach

swinging by the sea =)

P.S Nissy!!! I miss you!!

huhu

2007-06-17T16:03:00.000+08:00

ok a little bit of update....

going to Perak tomorrow....apparently going to Pangkor island...and its gonna be a long long drive....and im gonna take turn driving with my dad....so first time driving in malaysia...my mum waking us up at 4 am tmr...leave early so we can reach early...

Its holiday but im more concern about my mid semester test...why o why do they have to make it right after hoildays....it shud be the other way round...gee....cant even enjoy holiday in peace..and so,gonna bring all my stuff along so that i can enjoy and study at the same time -.- .

Well...i'll miss Nissy.......awww......haha..take care aite...

koolkoko

2007-04-16T20:53:00.000+08:00

Boredd.....i think we had like 30 mins of lessons in total for today.....15 min lecture at 8...then 4 hrs break....12 got tut for 15 mins....then end sch....wth? zzz....hah...no mood to eat today...first time i didnt finish up my zinger meal..haish..

I miss the beach...

itp

2007-04-12T21:50:00.000+08:00

itp started and ended in a flash....lazy to write it down..zzz..

exam results!

2007-03-07T20:57:00.000+08:00

Okaay....today found out my exam's results...well, its okaylah....average...i think i can do better if i try more...basically here's wat i got..

Engineering Mathematics A
Microcontroller Technology A
The Revealing Eye in Digital Photography A
Aircraft Systems Maintenance Practices B+
Aircraft Servomechanism and Electronics B
Human Factors B
Report Writing and Presentation B

Cumulative GPA = 3.54

My sister said that im a freak...cause i play game every day and i still get this kind of grades -.- . Lol....dunno about that.....but yeah,i thought of going university after finishing poly....but dunno if i will still have the drive to study or not...

And yeah...next week my family going Vietnam..gonna be alone the whole week....sad...

another day..

2007-03-03T19:28:00.000+08:00

Today....I accompanied Alia to Tamp to change her shoes ..she ah, every few seconds must stop and go into shop....sheesh....girls..after that got bored and we decided to watch a movie....but since she's going to watch dreamgirls later for her movie gala thingy so we ended up watching epic movie..which I think is lame cause it involved a lot of slapstick humor and focus less on the storyline.

After that went to Times,and got this section where we read some books that have inspirational quotes and stuff...oh ya,i read this zodiac book also....turn out that theres varies type of rabbit a person can be....and im a fire rabbit! haha....sounds fierce....fire rabbit....kinda cool also...and she's an earth snake....Lol, mine sounds nicer though...fire rabbit wins earth snake....nyahaha... then they state all the ideal zodiac partner for the rabbit and stuff which is rather interesting...

Too bad today cant take the new car cause not ready yet....need to wait until Monday...cant wait to try it out...

another boring day of mine..

2007-03-01T20:36:00.000+08:00

yer lah2....i shall post another post on my boring life...aniwae,just came back.....met syak in sch and went back together....since yesterday and yesterday's yesterday tak meet kan....hurhur...and the train was jam packed...so,wat did i do today? Hmm.....went to school....and ermm.....watch naruto =) .Lol....I think i shall declare this week as Naruto Week! Partly because i've been spending my attachment in school watching naruto and also at home....wahaha....but didnt watch it all the way today...we shifting lab soon....so did some table arrangement in the new and bigger lab...k after that continued my naruto watching...lol.

Oh....i came back....and was told that my lil bro brought back tokoyaki balls from his work....but! My small adek eat everything up. So sad =( ...and she still can laugh at me...lucky she's cute....if not rite.....grr...

old guy already..

2007-02-04T23:33:00.000+08:00

ahaaha.......yup,turned 19 today...thanks to all my frens who wish me happy birthday...thanks a lot,for bothering to remember my birthday....i reallie appreciate it..okay....so got a new bag from my sister and i would like to say a big thank you to her...and my lil sis got me an empty bottle? lol...but i still appreciate it....then my lil bro brought us to sakura...he rich liao...can belanja us....haha...k basically thats it....drove here and there then got back home...microcontroller paper on tuesday...must go all out tomorrow..bla bla bla...k dunno wat else to say....oh ya...singapore won! woohoo.....wonderful goal by amri...although i must say he whack the ball without thinking...k thats all....im out...peace..

sch

2007-01-05T20:41:00.000+08:00

shit....stupid blog didnt publish the thing i wrote just now..nemind..i shall write down a song...cause im lazy to write back wat i wrote just now..

Every time I think of you
I get a shot right through into a bolt of blue
It's no problem with mind, but it's a problem I find
Living a life that I can't leave behind
There's no sense in telling me
The wisdom of a fool won't set you free
But that's the way that it goes and it's what nobody knows
And every day my confusion grows

Every time I see you falling
I get down on my knees and pray
I'm waiting for that final moment
You say the words that I can't say
I feel fine and I feel good
I feel like I never should
Whenever I get this way, I just don't know what to say
Why can't we be ourselves like we were yesterday
I'm not sure what this could mean
I don't think you're what you seem
I do admit to myself that if I hurt someone else
Then I'll never see just what we're meant to be

...

2007-01-04T21:58:00.000+08:00

i feel like making a poem all of a sudden...dont ask me why...i oso dunno....but creative mentality not good....what a bummer....im feeling lethargic.....one whole day at sch......wearing formal clothes and tight shoes...now my foot is sore..

Even virtual world cant keep this one out....fmhshgmsomdhakdf

looking ahead..

2007-01-03T16:51:00.000+08:00

ahh.....Faiz mulut masin....maybe im fated to stay that way ah....Zzz.....well nemind....i must be reallllie bored to be blogging at this time of the day...but its okay....report not done.....yay......so many things not done....wahaha......i feel like lecturing myself on sumthing....but i know its no use so wth......what i need now is to be in the virtual world....no worries.....but server down...damn....hmm.....wat better time then to finish off my report? And yah congrats to puss for passing his tp...tata.......

backk

2006-12-23T18:29:00.000+08:00

okay....so its been like a decade since i last blog...but nemind...im bored now...so lets see wat im supposed to do duirng this very short three weeks break..

Things to do:
- Report for RWP
- Report for HF
- Do assignment 3 for GEMS
- Study for semestral exams
- Ermm...FYP?

Hmm....how many done? Unfortunately none....wahaha....gee....the stress is getting to me..and not forgetting the millions of lab test after school reopen....Zzz...

gee..

2006-07-19T22:14:00.000+08:00

there's so many things i wanna blog about....but the funny thing is i always forget by the time i reach home...

yess..

2006-06-27T21:23:00.000+08:00

Finally....

holidays..

2006-06-08T22:23:00.000+08:00

A short span of three weeks to study six modules.................arghh......to make it worst,I dont understand a single thing....so have fun Fauzan...one week almost up and nothing achieve......keep it up....and my mum planning to take us to sarawak for holiday.... I need time.....ahh

okay enough about that....today woke up damn early to send my sis to ang mo kio for some PSLE workshop thingy.... got out of our house at 6.40 am....so early in the morning....and then had to wait for the bus some more..... I dont trust buses cause there are always late and unpredictable....MRT is the best for me....haha.....then have to make an hour journey to ang mo kio...send my sis.....and just as i was about to head back to the station, it started raining heavily...so another hour wasted waiting....finally after that one more hour back to Pasir Ris....then stayed at home one whole day then....bla bla bla....all the boring stuff..

so many things happening....nothing i expected......and nothing turning out the way i would have wanted it to be...I know it wouldnt..

losing my grip...

2006-05-15T21:52:00.000+08:00

today's monday was exceptionally draggy......cant seem to count the number of times i wish that time would fly by today....aniwae im starting to get the picture...i know more than i shud........and yeah it doesnt look good.... today's post is short because im in no mood to blog...niwae tc..

Im losing my grip...
cant seem to hold on...

rainy day

2006-05-12T22:54:00.000+08:00

stayed at home the whole day......which,in case u dont know is very dull and boring.....it rain heavily towards the evening which would be very pleasant if i were to sleep....haha but i didnt and all i did was go online and watch tv....i found something which i've been searching for a few weeks now....dunno if its a good thing or not...like Ria said,curiosity kills the cat....i'll just see what comes of it..and awaz said that syak got me tix for gema...damn,if its true than i got to go...

and yah.....just when i thought i got rid of the girl who kept sms-ing me.....she msg me again....Zzz..

all low..

2006-05-11T21:34:00.000+08:00

today was boring..........for GEMs it wasnt reallie that bad though......then we had lecture for 3 hrs straight i think...then Faiz went home after the break cause he wasnt feeling very well....so i had to go through 3 hrs of oop without him.....was boring as usual.....and i dont understand a thing....and the lab test is next week! Zzz....got a lot of catching up to do.....then went home with wiyah....but i had to wait for those 3 outside the toilet for a while.....cause ria and ju need to wear tudung for seni.....haha...

i have so many burning questions that i cant seem to find and answer for..........why? she dont seem to bother.......or is it because i assumed she felt that way? Zzz....

Why do i get up?
Just to end up falling
again and again...

memorable

2006-05-01T16:41:00.000+08:00

I like yesterday =) .

this week...

2006-04-27T22:21:00.000+08:00

im shag..........this week has been rather pleasant but tiring....one thing that's a cause for concern is that i havent been attentive for practically every lesson.....my thought keeps going somewhere....haiya....when it comes to lecture i have an attention span of abt 5 mins at most....lol. Have to start being serious soon....yr 2 already zan.....ahaha. Haiz.....had a lil problem yesterday.....but im glad its settle...i feel guilty.....i was mad,wasnt thinking straight and yeah....i know your're hurt...im reallie sorry....i still feel bad after apologizing to him...but u still are my buddy...

fixated?

2006-04-25T21:14:00.000+08:00

i like the start of today.....for once,time flew by quickly .....i likee... but then its much too quick....haiz.....im still thinking why?how?if?wat? too much....ahh.Nemind....relax.......

.....

2006-04-15T20:55:00.000+08:00

cant help wondering.......am i fooling myself again? Zzz...

kem

2006-04-08T20:17:00.000+08:00

newsflash - *zan has updated his blog*

so......its been a long time...hmm,well.....first thing,i passed my basic theory.....wahaha. Next thing.....i did well for my papers.... and lastly.....the holiday is almost over...so i still have one week left till school starts which is 17 april i think...

okay.....went to k.e.m for the past 5 days....its not bad actuallie.....had fun and stuff...compared to last yr...hmm....its quite different as a freshie and a facilitator...no doubt tiring but i enjoyed it....its a whole lot better than rotting at home doing nothing...there were some days that we didnt sleep....next day flat.....wahaha

and i made a lot of new frens...yay.....haha..

18 at last....

2006-02-11T23:16:00.000+08:00

okay....i turn 18 last week....nothing much happened, same every year......I went out to play lan on my birthday......with arep and maggie..but it was fun also...but thanks for the bdae wish...hmm. exams in a few weeks..so time to start studying....then again still got some time...been a very long time since i last update this blog...been busy gaming...aniwaes, just booked my basic theory test today....yay! Im going to start learning how to drive....the test will be on the 30 march....but till then still got time =)

make over..

2005-10-12T20:48:00.000+08:00

Its the time of the year.......with hari raya just around the corner,it seems that the house cant be left to be exactly the same as last year...gonna paint my house green this year...wahaha,onlie less than halfway through...still a long way to go..

aniwae....my parents have decided to take us to Dubai this coming December....never been there before,but lookling forward to it...been a while since we last took a plane...the last time was around a yr or two ago...at Beijing...

Ohh...and i just realised that onlie 8 days have pass since puasa started....dont want to lose weight again...why is it so hard to gain weight? =<

So..im passing my time playing computer games.....finish watching the dvds my mum bought....the longest yard,corpse bride,the myth,four brothers and the duke of hazzard...
what else to do?? xbox no new games........arghh....i feel like going out....

lethargic..

2005-10-03T21:34:00.000+08:00

Side effects of playing soccer for 3 hours?Plus playing it after not playing soccer for about 3 months?? Lethargic...aching body...aching muscle..and a big headache...

Wanted to go ice skating with the rest...but unfortunately have to go geylang with my parents..wanted to buy baju kurung...and aniwae no money...damn.Soo...aniwae ,was walking along geylang with me mom...than she stop at this kedai..this guy was selling kurma and there's a bunch of clothes behind him..so my mum ask him.

"Adik....ni baju berapa harganya?"
"Ohh...ah ni bajukan....ermmm.....entah cik,ni baju kedai sebelahnye."

Wow....great answer....wahaha...was damn tired just now...battery flat....still am...have to recharge....Zzz...Zzz

one more left..

2005-09-26T21:35:00.000+08:00

Finish maths paper just now...they should really place a clock in the exam room..i didnt manage to complete the last question though...damn it,10 marks gone...nemind,the paper was quite easy except for the lack of time...or maybe it could be my time managing sux..okaay,so went to beach road with faiz and mamat for a while...they wanted to buy shoes and shirts...well,went home straight after that..still havent start studying for PEEE yet..maybe tomorrow..yeah..

A picture mag gave me yesterday...during teacher's day...*melts*...yeah,was wearing make up...for the performance that day..

life..

2005-09-23T23:21:00.000+08:00

There are many ways you can describe life using an analogy....haha,and i used mine on awaz while going prayers with him just now...

Imagine u are in a softball or baseball match...u are the batter(the guy who bats the ball)...now u have a two options to choose from..either u wait for strikes or u wait for balls...if u get 3 strikes you're out..and if u get 4 balls u get a walk to first base..its very simple..are u the kind who grabs any chances that came along..that is u wait for strikes or are u just the one who simply waits for the chance to come along..this is u wait for balls...or are u both....well u see...u can hit the ball whether its a strike ball or a ball...what matters is u hit a homerun..thats the kind of person who takes risk..

for me now im waiting for balls.....but guess i attract the wrong kinda person...daamnn...haha..
for those who dont understand the above analogy...thats good..that means u are very well a normal person...wahaha..and yeah a piece of advice from the great awaz...

"Let's see if the juice is worth the squeeze.."

exams..

2005-09-19T18:15:00.000+08:00

okaaay.....word of the day = "study".

so...tomorrow's my first paper...DE....got to study..

yeah..i will..

okaaay zan....study......study...........study....................................study.......................

jammin' in the toilet..

2005-09-16T20:18:00.000+08:00

Lectures were boring.....went prayers with Faiz after school....i decided to go home straight after school but then i met Ali on the way back....we talk about DE and then decided not to go home cuz Ali wanted to give me a crash course on DE...wahaha..went to mls to study with Ali...in the end i understood most of it i guess...he got a weird way of teaching..but as long as it works i have no complain...wahaha.Then he had to go at 3..Wak,Efin,Arif and Rahman came to mls....we were just hanging around playing the guitar and Wak brought his own guitar also.At that moment I played wak's song...and suddenly they were all discussing about recording his song with efin singing most of the part and arfi and wak singing other parts....and wak came up with the solo just this morning..it sounded awesome...so we planned to record it aniway...wak taught me how to play the solo part for rythm and tada...we were ready to record....and of all places,we went to the gym's toilet...wawawa...the song sounded great aniway...but it was fun jamming in the toilet....haha...just finish converting the song to mp3 format...with special thanks to faiz.. and not forgetting....Happy 17th Birthday to BULU!!! haha...

testssssss

2005-09-15T22:12:00.000+08:00

3 lab test done this week....wahaha,did 2 just now...i screwed cadcam totally..forgot how to draw the board thingy...what the heck..at least the others was easy.Now semestral exam coming up..not looking forward to it though...got to start my revision soon...

honoured..

2005-09-15T20:12:00.000+08:00

the blog name is suggested by The Mag.....honoured....wahaha...so hello everyone..